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be a man April 29, 2013

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these past few months God has been teaching me a lot about being a strong man. I learned before, that a man should be able to lead, make decisions, treat women well, and so on. I’ve been through quite a long process and even until now I’m still learning more and more to become a man God wants me to be.


some time ago I watched a movie called “Ted”. probably it’s an image of many men these days, and maybe in some way I was like that also. the story is about a 35 year-old-guy who is too attached to his “magical” teddy bear that he got since he was 8 years old. he feels too comfortable with the teddy bear and it holds him back from having a more mature relationship with a woman. even after he decided to move on, when temptation came he started to compromise and ended up screwing things up. an image of a man who prefers to do silly things, can’t make a strong decision, always try to play safe and can’t keep his words.

The husband provides leadership to his wife the way Christ does to his church, not by domineering but by cherishing. -Eph 5:23 MSG

God puts a man to be a leader in the family, of his wife and his children. how can he lead well if all he thinks is all about himself, or if he can’t make any decision? there are two possibilities that maybe many of us can relate to. it’s forming either a selfish, strict, or even violent man; or, a passive man who lets the woman leads. I think these are one of the reasons why many marriages are unhappy, because it’s not how the marriage is supposed to be.

I think I can put myself into the second group. I never felt confident to lead. I couldn’t really make decisions. I didn’t really know what I wanted. when I was asked about something, almost everytime I will answer “anything is ok”, like when they asked my opinion of where to go for dinner. a female friend once challenged me, “hey don’t keep saying ‘anything’, you’re a man, you should learn to make a decision starting from simple things like this”. she got a point there. I couldn’t stay like that forever. what if I have a family and all I say is “anything” and leave all the burden to my wife? that doesn’t sound fair.

it was around the time when I ‘began my journey’ to become a real man. many years have passed, I have been through a lot of experiences and challenges, and I know even until now I’m still not ‘perfect’, sometimes I feel that making a decision is still a challenging thing for me, but I know how much I’ve grown throughout this time. not only learning to make decisions, I learn to lead people, to communicate better, to keep my words and have integrity, and so on.

recently I learned more about being a strong man from a book titled “Wild at Heart” written by John Eldredge. the journey of becoming a man doesn’t just stop there. it’s said in the book that many christian men feel bored because they are only taught to be nice but not to be how a real man should be. they are afraid to take adventures, take challenges that can make them feel ‘alive’.

“Don’t ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” -Howard Thurman

the problem is that there is a wound in every man’s heart. maybe from family background or experiences from the past, those wounds constructed a false self in most men. those wounds need to be healed and the only one who can heal them is God.

when I was a kid I used to be a crybaby, I cried easily when a friend at school tripped me over or when a teacher scolded me. “A man shouldn’t cry!” that’s what people around me always said, and I guess that’s the image of man most of us grew up with. unconsciously that created a wound in my heart and later made me an ’emotionless’ boy. I didn’t cry anymore, not only over small things like that, but also to anything. when other people shedded their tears (even guys) when watching something touching, I didn’t feel anything. until I started to know God more, God healed me and changed my life. now I can feel something again. now I know what it’s like to be touched in the heart.

As the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are you in my hand. -Jeremiah 18:6 NLT


there are still some wounds in my heart that God is still healing one by one. God is still shaping me into what He wants me to be. and I want to live a life full of adventure as a strong man of God.


new creation – Rurouni Kenshin September 6, 2012

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first time i knew about rurouni kenshin (るろうに剣心) is when they broadcasted the anime in indonesian television (and changed the title into samurai x -__-a) when i was still in junior high-school. then it became one of my favorite anime, i could memorize all the opening and ending songs (even now i still remember some of them), and i have all the comic books in indonesian. this year they made the live action movie of it and i just watched it last week.

the story is about himura kenshin, an assassin known as “hitokiri battousai” during bakumatsu war. after the war ended, he decided not to kill anymore and became a wanderer. 11 years later he came to tokyo and met with kamiya kaoru, sanosuke sagara, and other friends where the main story began.

in the live action movie, i found it interesting when kaoru knew the fact that kenshin was the hitokiri battousai but still offered him to stay in her dojo. she said “you are not hitokiri battousai, you are himura kenshin”.

it just reminded me of God’s love for us. no matter how bad we were, no matter how evil things we did, as long as we admit our sins to Him, repent and do no more sins, He will forgive us and will not remember our sins anymore. so no need to feel guilty anymore. no more the old sinner me, only the new me living in His grace.

This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!
– 2 Corinthians 5:17 [NLT]

And I will forgive their wickedness, and I will never again remember their sins.
– Hebrews 8:12 [NLT]

and also like in the movie, there might be times where temptations come and trying to pull us back to that old life. don’t give up, get back to God, His help is never too late.

Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.”
– 2 Corinthians 12:9 [NLT]

stay strong by faith May 11, 2011

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it’s been exactly two months since the Great Tohoku Earthquake that devastated north eastern part of Japan with big tsunami and nuclear crisis following the 9.0 magnitude earthquake. it was the biggest earthquake ever recorded in Japan. even the tremor is felt quite strong in Tokyo which is located about 300 km from the epicenter. the tsunami destroyed everything around the coastal area, wiped away cars and houses, brought them level to the ground. the cooling system in Fukushima Daiichi Nuclear Power Plant was crippled by the wave that caused radioactive materials released to the atmosphere.

the disaster was huge enough to bring fear to people even in Tokyo. so many people, especially foreigners, fled away, some to the west, and not a few, back to their countries. immigration offices and airports were packed with people who were trying to get out of the country. many nations through their embassies in Japan strongly urged their citizens residing in Japan to go back, and even the embassies themselves were trying to relocate to other cities other than Tokyo.

some people got depressed and traumatized. a labmate from C country cried after the big long earthquake. even a friend of my friend from T country whom I just met a few days after the disaster greeted me saying “hi. nice to meet you. you might die tomorrow.”

i myself didn’t worry so much. i got a bit panicked after the first big shock since it was very long and i realized it wasn’t just a common quake, and at that time my leg was injured so if something worse happened i might be in trouble. but after a while observing the situations, although the shocks still didn’t stop, seeing my neighbors weren’t in panic as well, i believed that everything would be okay.

the interesting thing is, while many of my friends got calls from their families, forcing them to go back home, my family didn’t. my mom was travelling abroad with my grandma at that time so she couldn’t contact me. my dad just texted me, asking about the condition, and just told me to keep praying. last week i went to my aunt’s house and we had some chats about the earthquake. she said that after the quake she still went on shopping, and when she informed my grandma, the answer she got was only “oh i see”. she realized that our family is so calm toward this.

through this experience, through sermons in church, and through what my aunt said, i kept being reminded about faith. faith is an important thing to have for believers. a faith that entrusts our lives to God, a faith that believes that our Father will never forsake us, a faith that He is in control of everything. the reason why we can be so calm facing this kind of situation, it’s all because we have faith in an awesome unshakeable God. even in the worst case scenario, we don’t need to be afraid because our lives is already in His hands. with faith, i believe that we can face any disaster that might come to our lives, because we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us.

Since we are receiving a Kingdom that is unshakable, let us be thankful and please God by worshiping him with holy fear and awe. -Heb 12:26 [NLT]

let God fill the gap April 9, 2011

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one of a recent anime in my watchlist is The World God Only Knows (Kami Nomi Zo Shiru Sekai or Kaminomi) that will soon air for its 2nd season…brought up from manga with the same title, the story is about a hardcore gamer who specializes in love simulation games…his ability to “conquer” every girl in every game he plays makes him known as “god”…knowing this, a devil was sent to have him help her capturing runaway spirits that reside in people’s empty hearts…

it is an entertaining story, and i never concerned about the concept of god, devil, or any spiritual things there, i just thought of it as a common thing just like any other anime i ever watched…until last sunday at church, the preacher said something that reminded me of this series…

“Only God can fill the gap in your heart”

that’s exactly what happens basically in Kaminomi…a girl has a gap in her heart which becomes a place for a runaway spirit and then ‘god’ brings love to fill that gap so that the spirit cannot stay there anymore…

i realized that it is the same in our real life…many people have these gaps, these emptiness in their hearts that often makes them feel bad, feel lonely that they run into things that they think can fill those gaps…some become too ambitious in certain thing, some seek attention from others by doing “crazy” things, some find temporary satisfaction from free sex or drugs, and so on…but actually, none of them can fill those gaps…deep inside they still feel the emptiness…

the fact is only God can fill those gaps…His unconditional love for us is the only answer to have a full life…not only me have experienced this, i know heaps of people whose lives are changed once they let God fill the gaps in their hearts…

Jesus replied, “Anyone who drinks this water will soon become thirsty again. But those who drink the water I give will never be thirsty again. It becomes a fresh, bubbling spring within them, giving them eternal life.” -John 4:13-14 [NLT]

Year One – you are chosen November 20, 2009

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one member of a primitive tribe named Zed (Jack Black) was banished from his village and he used that chance to pursue his dream, to see the outside world that he has never seen before…he thought that he is the chosen one by God to make the journey…so his journey began, together with his friend Oh, he met some people from the Bible, got through a lot of trouble and adventures, trying to save his tribe from the slavery…

i don’t like this movie, it’s not a good movie i could say, i don’t recommend this movie…but there’s one thing that i got…in the end of the movie, when people finally call him as the chosen one, he said “Maybe we can all make our own destiny. Maybe we could all be chosen.”

i think he got a point there…yeah, our destiny are not decided by anyone else, not by our moms or dads, our boyfriends or girlfriends, or our leaders, but our destiny are decided by ourselves, every one of us…yes, God has chosen us from the beginning of the life…as the Bible says in Psalms 139:16 “All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”

I imagined this like a choose-your-own-story book that i used to read back when i was a kid (have you ever read something like that?) the book has one main story, about certain character(s), and how will it end is decided on how you choose the way…God already write all the story, He makes us the main character, and He’s giving us the freedom to choose how our story go…do you want a good destiny, a happy ending??then make a good choice on your story…

you are precious November 4, 2009

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anyone of you know that you are special??you are unique, no one else like you in the whole world…even for twins, thay may look similar outside, but they can’t be totally the same, especially inside of them…yes, God is awesome, He created everyone of us, every people in this world, since the beginning of the earth until now, different…and God has a special reasons for that, just like a product designer who has a lot of reasons why he creates a product as it is…

just like Nokia, for example, in one time of product launching, they may launch several types at once, some maybe have similar looks, but all different, each of them has a special purpose to be made like that…maybe for some people the low-end one is good enough (i remember one of my friend who still loved his old Nokia 8250 even there were a lot of much better ones), but for other people, the high-end is better…but in the other hand, some people may think bad of the others…so it’s just a different perspective on what is good and what is not…but i’m sure in a creator’s perspective, what he created is good…

the same goes with us human…God created us good, perfect…some people may have big bodies, but some are small…some have round face, some with long face…some have white skin, some have darker skin…so many differences, but all of us are good in God’s perspective…

but there comes the devil that tries to make some standards of good and bad for us…he makes us have a thinking to be in those standards, if we don’t have the “good” standards, then we are bad…then we started to think bad of ourselves, we have no more confidence in ourselves, and we tried so hard to become someone “better” even it may hurt ourselves…

i have a friend here, a girl, who is quite good looking i think, and i think a lot of people likes her…but she always says that she’s fat and ugly, because of her past when people around her built those thinkings to her…she always tries to have a diet although her body is ideal enough, and she thinks that no good man will like her because she says she’s ugly…sometimes we are just trapped into similar kind of thinking like this…

don’t let our selves being deceived by the devil all the time, and the only way to get out from it is just see ourselves from God’s perspective…don’t listen to what people says about us, especially when it’s a bad thing, but listen only to what God says…and stop also making standards to people, saying bad things about them…believe me, every one of us, including YOU, are precious in His eyes…

“You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” May 23, 2009

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lately, the new-type influenza (新型インフルエンザ as they call it in japan, or swine-flu) has been a big issue here.  since the first time they found an infected person, they started to put a huge attention there. the government (or the health center) gave announcements for us to wash our hands and gargle regularly, and wear masks if we’re going to public places. well, the first ones don’t matter for me. i’m already used to it, but for wearing mask, it’s still kinda weird for me. and after they discovered that it has spread, like in kobe and osaka, they got more and more cautious. most schools and companies around that area is closed for a while to prevent it spreading to more people…

and a few days ago, the infection was found near tokyo, and people here were starting to get cautious also. although they haven’t closed public places (tokyo still seems to be very busy every day), but masks are sold out in every store.  i see most people wearing mask everywhere, even my friend showed me a picture in a newspaper about welcoming girls in airport wearing masks (seems funny. imagine it by yourself ^^)

at first i don’t really care about it. but everyone keeps fussing about it. somehow i was also starting to get a little bit worried. but God keeps reminding me to keep my faith, that He’ll keep me safe. then three days ago He told me about Matthew 8. i read it but just found the clear meaning of it when i rethought about that this morning.

this chapter tells about Jesus making a lot of miracles. He healed the sick, cast out the devils, and calm the storm. it shows us how great He is. He is in control of everything in the world. He can do anything. but in this chapter, everyone asked Jesus first and then He did what they wanted Him to do. it shows about their faith. they knew Jesus can do it, that’s why they asked for it..

we can see the comparison how Jesus responded to our request depending on our faith. in a part of this chapter, a centurion came to Him and asked Him to heal his servant but he knew that Jesus can do it right away, no need to come to his house (verse 5-13), and Jesus said that he has a great faith. in the other hand, written in another part, while He and His disciple were in a boat and a storm came, they asked Him for help but they also said that they will perish (verse 23-27) and Jesus said like this, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?”…okay, we face a problem and we seek God for help, that’s good (instead of looking help from men), but that’s not enough. God wants us to come to Him full of faith, full of consciousness that He is able to do everything, without any doubt at all…another version of the storm story, the one in the book of Luke, even has a nice words on verse 25 (Message version): “Why can’t you trust me?”

yeah, i don’t need to worry about anything, not even about that swine-flu. of course i still need to keep aware of my health, but it doesn’t mean that i have to be ‘paranoid’ of it. i am learning to have more faith, to put my trust in Him, that I will be kept safe in His hand. and so are you…as long as you trust your life to Him…

faith June 20, 2008

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yesterday I was taught by God about faith, a simple faith, that could make me do many things…

when I was having my spiritual gifts tests, I found out that faith is in the top of my “Holy Spirit Manifestation Gifts”…my mentor told me that it’s basic for a Christian to have it…it came to my mind, if so, then why should it be in the gift’s list??but I didn’t really bother it then…

God gave me an answer for it yesterday…when I was in angkot on my way home, there was some junior high school girls having some chats…they were talking about they final exam and about going to high school…I heard that they are really worried about those things, whether they’re gonna get good scores, or what high school they’ll get accepted, and so on…it was when I was also having a chat with a friend who’s also applying for Japanese scholarship, and she’s also worried about it…seeing me who isn’t worried, she said “how come you could be so calm??what if you don’t get accepted”…I just said calmly “why should I??I just believe that I will get it”…

when I was thinking about that, I remember many people I know or even I don’t know who seem to worried so much about things, while me, I rarely have those worries…when I was entering high school, I didn’t worry at all…when I was going to get to university, I was applying for scholarship and I didn’t get it, my mom got worried while I was still calm…having only one choice of university (the hardest one), my friend wondered how come I got so confident…

God reminded me, that this is the “faith” gift He has given to me…yeah, I have more faith than other people…I can still be calm in things that worry others…maybe it seems to be just something simple for me, but I just realized that it might become something big…

I bought a book authored by Jentezen Franklin titled “Right People, Right Place, Right Plan – Be Sensitive to God’s Voice”…I’ve been wanting to learn more about hearing God’s voice, it’s one of my wish, to be able to clearly hear His voice…so when I saw it in the bookstore, I decided to buy it…well, actually it’s not really as I expected, but it’s still a good book though…in a part of that book, it’s said that in hearing God’s voice, some people is in logicalization extreme where they don’t want to move until God reveals all the ways…they say “speak to me, and I will move” but God says “you move, and I will speak to you”…as the Bible says in 2 Corinthians 5:7 “For we walk by faith, not by sight”…it says about faith…

then I saw a movie “Mr.Magorium’s Wonder Emporium”…it’s about a magical toy store that works only to those who believe in it…and again from this movie I was reminded about faith…how we can do things by believing…there’s also a part that says “you have to BELIEVE IT to SEE IT”…yups, it’s the same as what’s told in the book and in the Bible…we don’t have to see before believing something, but the “believe” itself comes first before we can see things, great things, happen in our life…

last week I was having something that quite bothered me, and it quite made me worried…but then God reminded me again to keep trusting Him, as Proverbs 3:5-6 says “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”…well, it took me some times, but finally I managed to do it…sometimes the worry came again, but God reminded me again and again…and yesterday was really really encouraging me to keep standing firm against anything that comes to me…yeah, I have this faith, I don’t have to worry anymore…my future is in His hands, and I will just believe in it…

give the best May 29, 2008

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i’ve just found this in a forum…it’s taken from an e-mail, about donation for earthquake in China…(already translated)

He walked in front of the donation desk. We thought that he’s just gonna pass by.

“I want to donate!”. He poured some coins from his bowl. We’re trying to help him, but he wanted to do it with his own hands.

We’re all getting speechless. He gave all he got with his own efforts for the charity.

“I still have some money.” He said enthusiastically while reaching for his pocket.

He took some $10 pieces of money and donate again!

i remembered a story in the Bible about a poor widow who gave all she got for God (Mark 12:41-44). and Jesus said to His disciples “Verily I say unto you, That this poor widow hath cast more in, than all they which have cast into the treasury: For all they did cast in of their abundance; but she of her want did cast in all that she had, even all her living.”

may this can also be an inspiration for you…let’s give our best, our life, to Him, as a living sacrifice, that can make Him smile…

more about grace… May 28, 2008

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recently i have been reminded again about God’s grace…
seeing these photos made me thank Him again for His grace in my life, as i mentioned in my previous post

but this time i wanna talk about another side of God’s grace…
it’s about how He loves every people no matter how bad they are or what sin they have done…
i’m reading a book titled “What’s So Amazing About Grace?” (Kejaiban Kasih Karunia) by Philip Yancey…a great book that teaches us as Christians, who have received God’s grace that forgives us from our sins, to also live with grace for other people around us…
actually i don’t know what else to say here, but i just wanna remind you that God’s grace, His forgiveness is still abundant for you, no matter what you have done, as long as you come to Him, ask for His forgiveness…His grace is more than enough for you…and for you who have received God’s grace in your life, let’s learn to live by grace for the others just like Jesus had shown us…

God bless you!!